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I DIDNT EVEN MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU! NOTHING! TO YOU IT WAS JUST SUPPLYING A RANDOM GIRL WITH VALIDATION, TO ME IT WAS EVERYTHING! AND IT WAS ALL FAKE AND INSINCERE! HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO DUMB!? how could i have trusted your words? why did you do this to me? i’m never trusting my feelings again, hope it was worth it for you. YOU DIDN’T EVEN FIGHT! MOM WAS RIGHT! I HATE YOU AND YOUR SWEET LIES!
Comments
rabbit ·
looking for fighting is a sign of immaturity when from my perspective it's patience / not grasping / respecting the boundaries you've expressed and giving you time to process
the way you're processing this from a kind of prototypical storybook girlish lens rings immature, but like, who knows over time
me chasing you against your moms and your expressed wishes would be insane at this point and some part of you should recognize that
rather you need to negotiate and reintegrate within yourself and ground more in reality than shuttle between the most dramatic interpretations
though really im highlighting the difference between our mindsets at this point
your projections of what i should do if love are just clearly wrong because i've explained my love and not contradicted myself
rabbit ·
specifically: i said many times i can wait lmao
rabbit ·
also i have a vocational mission still and so do you
Nicole author ·
But the thing is you won't be waiting. It will never be allowed to be. Rherefore i need to detach myself from this and the only way to do so is to narrate it in a negative way because if i dont then ill be grieving and hurting.
Im so tired. Im so so so tired.
Nicole author ·
I was mistaken lol, the best way to deal with this is to push it away until it has never even happened :D